silence....is golden

silence is a word that hasn't been felt...by many people..

silence.........is such a beautiful thing....

the power of silence remains unmatched.
silence can make...or break..

for one whole year, i've had to endure more silence than anything, and it has also taught me more than anything in the world ever could.

silence isnt just the mere absence of noise.

it's the absence of a social environment, it's the absence of everything that tags along with a social urban life

this year has been a year when i've had to put my heart and soul into what i'm doing, what i'm aiming for.. because i know i'm not going to get another chance
and the very beginning was when real silence came into the picture

i missed all those outings....i never went shopping with friends, no more come-down-right-now lunches.... i hardly maintained any of those amazingly idiotic telephone conversations i used to have with them...everybody got busy with their own lives, i got busy with mine...
all i attended, were classes and tests. i did manage to make new friends there too, but it never felt the same. the atmosphere was different, professional and i felt more than just out-of-place

no one stopped me from going out, but somehow i didnt feel the need to do it
in the beginning i did feel a bit lonely, for i wasn't able to be in constant touch with my friends. i used to cry sometimes, i used to crib, and feel left out...
gradually, all the lonely feelings wore out. i got involved with my studies, i didn't get time to feel lonely
yet, silence only grew with time, and i knew that the only way to deal with it, was to accept it
only then i could realise that it's much nicer than it just seems

i could learn a lot through it...

i got time to start thinking about my future

it left me more energetic and happier, at the end of the day ! it strengthened my hopes
it made me think better, think wiser. it made me think.

i avoided those small mistakes i'd made before, i gave a second thought to everything

i'd learnt to be patient

i had all the time in the world to take care of my problems, to deal with my feelings and understand who i really am

i'd finally found a stronger identity in myself...

i admit...it's been a lonely journey, but now i'm happy
and i'm strong enough to do without somebody's help in this world.

i haven't got what i really want, and who i really want

i dont have all my desires fulfilled, nor have i achieved my goal as yet
yet, i'm happy.
on the inside, i feel light..

-aarthi