all in a brownie day's work

To me, a brownie day is a day when you've done what you wanted to,rather than what you're supposed to, and there's no guilt about it.

pleasure is my addiction. what gives me that pleasure changes. everyday..AND probably every moment. that way i'm addicted. and quite mysteriously, NOT addicted either.

too much food is really good once in a way.

being mushy is not idiotic. it's therapeutic.

today i learned two new things from two interesting sources:

"Mellow is the man
who knows what he's been missing
many, many men
cant see the open road"

"together we stand, divided we fall"

health is infact, everything.

there's never too less time to grab aside to dream. or nap

valley of thoughts. useful, useless, beautiful, good, bad, scary and dreamy. i'd like a hand while i fall in it.

now is great, tomorrow will have a chance to become now, let's wait for it patiently.

who's my soul twin ? i'd like to know.

all in a brownie day's work

tea talk

pretty wired up i feel.

there are many people, who have come along in these 22 years

who have shown me who i am, what i'm capable of, who have changed my life for better, not for worse.

some i've grown up with, some i've disagreed with, some i've loved.. some great people and some, incompetent people.

stability is pretty much a dream. there is nothing such as stability since everything, i believe, is volatile. our thoughts, our actions and our desires.

this year, things have changed tremendously.

my closest friend and sister has found, in a friend, the man worth committing to, for a lifetime.

parents are preparing to see that little girl grow up and be in the shoes that they were in, 26 years ago.

i'm in my final move of completing the first step towards my dream.

one of my best friends and mentor, is changing job, experimentally. just like a kid. just because he fancies it.

my few close, precious people are branching out into different futures.

i've found a soul sister.

i've found love.

change is changing me.

now.

birds of a feather flock together

by all means and laws and facts and rhymes and riddles and words,
explain to me what 'originality' is.

what is originality and creativity if we cannot see them the way they have to be seen ?
what is credit ?
why do we give people credit and why do we seek it ?

mostly, we all seek appreciation.
only, remove the word "mostly" so, you'll be left with the truth.
for that reason, credit exists.

i believe that the roots of originality lie in chance.
what would we be if we were all the same?
since it's the human mind/animal mind that seeks a variety in everything..just everything, right from colors to clothes to seasons to places to mates, what would we be without originality ? NOT human, definitely.

what makes originality, is accident.
creativity, is an accidental arrangement of what you have with you. originality is haphazard.
since you know and see the best example, i'll name our planet. what's 'organized' about nature ? she's random. she's wild.
you won't see the same landscape in two different places. no two pine trees are the same. even identical twins are different !
that's originality. just a planned and beautiful accident.

if it's really an accident and it is random, what credit need we, for what is created (by us?) in a freak accidental moment? for our originality isn't even original.
because, 'randomness' is a copied thought. we're like horses on race tracks. programmed to commit randomness. to randomly arrange things to get something that 'looks' different from the rest, is a copied thought. we are trained, right from the time we're born to know, that randomness will give us something that 'looks' new.
but that, is not originality.. that, is merely an illusion of originality.
seeking originality and pursuing it, by now, wouldn't feel like an awesome idea anymore, with all the hue and cry we make of it.
when we do not know what originality really means, there's no big idea behind chasing something you cannot understand. and for our perception of originality, credit ? i doubt there's a solid base to this.

it is indeed very easy, at such an elementary level of thinking, to say that giving up credit is no big thing, for credit means nothing. however, it isn't that easy to find a person satisfied in their own intention, seeking nothing from anybody else. no appreciation, no approval.
nevertheless, 'credit' is the most useless entity. it's as ridiculous as how badly we need it. in all honesty,i can't stop laughing at how badly i need the credit for things i do, though i know it's absolutely purposeless.

what we must possess for achievement is real ego.
whereas, what we do possess, is phantom ego.. what we put on display. and food for phantom ego, is credit.
behind that facade, there's fear.
anger is a part of phantom ego. it arises when we cannot digest a fact or when we cannot discard useless opinions, and it hits us at our insecurities. you cannot fight the truth, nor should we ideally have those insecurities to regard useless opinions as significant.
to be insecure, is not human. it's stupid. and to believe that it's human, is even more stupid. because, somebody's told you that too, right ? why blindly believe in something that's not original ?
why should satisfying others satisfy us ? why should we look unto another's smile for approval ? another's nod, to be sure ? what's to be sure about, when you know what you want ?
there are no original thoughts, because we live in fear of defying.
things we do looking for everybody else's approval is not selfless, it's just being insecure in self. it dissolves the purpose of existing.
it doesn't make us. it kills 'us'

every step you take from now, think of how much of 'you' there is, in it

aarthi

happiness lies in ..l..

The solution i've realised, to unreasonable happenings and people, is only and only to let go.
After a lot of thinking and well, i must admit, wasting significant time and energy..i found an answer

the sensible ones will know your worth and win you. Or win you back.

there are 4 rules in testing times-
do not be answerable to anyone who doesn't deserve your answerability
stop whining
smile
dress like a charm

life ROCKS that way
-A

taped shut.

My parents brought me up telling me stories about unnecessary rules and going by them, living on them..examining them piece by piece, and following them..there are people who believe in that kind of life.
yes, they've told me it's all rubbish.

it is.

i've heard that and laughed about it, a million times, hardly knowing how it affects each one of us.
as i'm growing up, i can see it everywhere.

the line between code of conduct/code of living and redtapism is anything but THIN.
imagine a law for inhaling. for walking. for eating. that's what the world seems to boil down to, at times !
there's paperwork for the most miniscule of things, a certain way you HAVE TO behave. a certain way you're cut and moulded against all your steadfast protests. a method you must conform to, and pledge to stand by !
and then you become a part of this sordid system. get into it, and grill the rest of the world, with the flow.
most of us don't mind it, though we hate it. and THAT is the attitude that nurtures something as dirty as unnecessary bureaucracy.
well, some of us manage to escape unharmed by that kind of living. Yet at the end of one decade, we can count these "some of us" with just our 10 fingers

Darling, sometimes rules are necessary. so we all don't go mad. so we don't lose track of progress. so that justice lasts.
But that's it.

somewhere along the way, rules lost their very purpose.
there are purposeless purposes.. unreasonable reasons
and anything important, ALWAYS involves redtapism. (my post-intern seniors know it best, right now)
redtapism was born with ego of foolish people who cannot take advantage of anything other than power or position to advance to superiority. Oh no.

sure there are a lot of people around here who are experiencing deja vous..

i'm not going ahead and asking why there are so many red tapes around here, the reason is clear.
modern feudalism at its pinnacle..hah !

it's actually a pretty good world that's making me want to go on, every minute.

i'm learning. So much !